who wants to be millionaire???

i just read this book called "the millionaires" which is apparently a thriller about how two brothers try to steal three million dollars from a bank supposedly belonging to no one... its a perfect crime... its foolproof and no one knows... but suddenly they have the American secret service and a personal investigators at their back...

as i finished the book i was thinking what most people would do in a situation like that... a situation where there is a vulnerable mix of desperation and frustration... would you steal if you would never get caught.. if you are saying no.. then what if i increased that amount of three million to thirty million or perhaps a hypothetical best three hundred million.. would you??

if you said yes.. you're being mighty honest but if you're saying NO... then im sure that's only a hypothetical NO in nine of ten cases.. because its human instinct to go for it... the fact the guilt would go into overdrive and not let you live are variables that come into play later.. but at that point of time.. the split second of a time that you have at hand.. what would you do... and no dont say you dont have the nerve to do it..

think about it.. the perfect crime.. three hundred million dollars.. all in the taking... to bring freedom from all the financial misery... i would have fallen for it!!! would you have???

Monday morning blues...

Garfield hates Monday mornings.. so do i.. and so do most people... maniac Monday morning blues has affected most people since ages... but this Monday was not the usual Monday morning blues.. it had nothing to do with dragging myself to work... or that there was a whole week to work... this Monday was bluer than usual...

and don't ask me why.. because i don't know... it was not lack of sleep.. or a mount of pending work.. it was something else.. something was wrong.. but i could not really point a finger at it... it left me stressed out... stressed out right at the start of the week... and to top it all.. my schedule started with the work i hate the most.. but having no choice i went about doing it...

uh.. i finished up earlier than usual.. and then i decided it was time to bust the stress... plugging in my head phones.. i took my bike and sped off... twenty kms and an hour later.. i felt much better... much better about myself and the whole world around me... not completely stress free... but at least I'm no longer going to snap at someone and then regret it... its really amazing what some good music and a nice bike ride in a beautiful background with some chilly weather can do to our mood...

yesterday my life was duller.. now everything is technicolour...:)

Is there a science that can deal with the physical and metaphysical forces of the environment to make it peaceful and harmonious??? my office landlord definitely thinks so...

when he decided to get the exteriors of the building painted there was a rush of excitement in all of us.. Colours are the most powerful in influencing human mind and body...of course.. considering the boring the building we entered into everyday.. the very thought of a nice bright building excited us...that too considering the present day scenario where you have colour palletes that you can almost fall in love with... we though were in for a surprise.. whether pleasant one or otherwise we'll find out soon...

the topic in discussion at office was the colour that the landlord would chose... and there was shock number one.. parrot green.. well shocking as it was that was not all.. only a part of the building was done before we started seeing buckets of other colours coming.. believe it or not.. he brought in a variety of colours... he has painted every single cm of the exteriors...ranging from that parrot green to the "mithai pink" and cyan blue and process yellow... well the list goes on and one... that is when we thought that he was over obsessed with the rainbow... i don't think i can over exaggerate.. but the building now has possibly a shade of all colours including the ones missing on the rainbow..

on a lighter note though i bet soon the most popular time pass to kill work stress is going to be the childish "colour, colour which colour do you choose??"

the excitement has all died down.. we are all sulking back to work... with a though is change really good???

Yours or mine????

"its my perception, what is your problem?" i'm sure most of us would be guilty of having used the phrase mostly out of sheer frustration... and ten out of ten times we think we are right... but is that always the case?? are we always right.. its humorous enough to say "the only time i was wrong was the time i thought i was wrong" but that's not reality... each person is entitled to their opinion and their views.. it's how they perceive a particular situation or person...

if each person is entitled to such freedom of perception then isn't it our duty to respect this freedom... well.. of course it is.. but what do you do when two people have significantly different perceptions of the same situation.. different feelings and different emotions???

Most of the time we argue just to prove that our perception is right... there is a famous Buddhist parable which goes like this "two students argued and argued about their understanding of a lesson the teacher had taught in class, they finally decided to let the teacher judge who is right and who is wrong. the first student explained to the teacher what his understanding of the lesson was, and teacher said he was right.. the first student left the room with a triumphant expression on his face... the second student then explained his understanding.. and the teacher said that he was right too.. he also left the room feeling victorious... a third student who had seen what happened asked the teacher how could both of them be right when each had contradicting views.. the teacher told him that he too was right..."

Well we might have different, in fact opposing perceptions to same situation.. but the trick is to understand that the other person's perception is as important to him as yours is to you..

who will win the tug of war?? the head or the heart???

she had to choose... choose between the devil and the deep blue sea... she was confused.. should she listen to the logic of the head or the longing of heart... what should she do when both are pulling her apart... pulling her apart in different directions... the head with sound and practical logic and her heart with truthfully emotional reasoning.. she thought and thought.."People are governed by the head; a kind heart is of little value in chess" but is life a game of chess???
"the heart is wiser than the intellect" but is it really??? can u rely on the judgment of your heart even if logic and caution tell you otherwise?? she moved in circles.. never really knowing where she was going.. confused, indecisive and very very tearful..

She pondered, visualised and kept her cool.. she thought and analysed.. weighed pros and cons.. but solution was no where in sight..

and then she read somewhere... Follow your heart.. but. listen to your head... and at that instance she thought everything was crystal clear... was she right??? she doesn't know.. and mark my words.. she won't find out very soon either...

Her First Crush

There is an old an well-heard saying that you never get over your first love. Is that true even for "the first infatuation/crush"??

Well 6 years ago it was when she believed that "the first impression is the best impression" and a little feeling cropped up in her heart... how can someone be like this?? perfect.. well at least almost perfect... responsible, smart, attractive, intelligent, energetic, humorous, sensitive... name it and he has had the quality... at least that is what she thought... from the minute he spoke to her she was highly impressed.. it was obviously a child admiring the qualities of a mature adult... but she was mature too.. she knew what it was.. her first crush.. a little late by normal standards.. but that is what it was.. she enjoyed talking to him.. cracking a joke.. learning from him.. or just being around him.. and then he left.. she dint know where...

What she felt was a feeling that most would say wouldn't last more than a couple of months... and she... pinned her heart and kept it safe...

And a few years later he was back..

Six years later... even now.. when she sees him... her heart races... a flush of embarrassment.. and she still insists that its a childish infatuation.. six years is by no mean standards a short term...

Is it but just a childish infatuation??? Um.. i guess so... a strong one though... she never denies the strong and positive feeling she felt.. she of course still likes him.. a person whose qualities she appreciates.. ask her about him.. and you'll still find her blushing.... may be its true.. that it doesn't really have to be love.. but she still remembers it all.. probably for all her life.. because it was special.. her first thrill of emotion to have liked someone... or is it because he was so special??? that i guess is a question which even she will be unable to answer...

Isn't that what most call a sweet and innocent first crush???

When life gives you lemons...

Why cant I do what i want to?? the way Ii want to??? why do I have to succumb to others expectations??? why cant I live the how I want to??? why is life so hard sometimes?? why does it seem like a test I can never pass???

Is it true that unfairness of life builds character??? I don really care if it does.. I can construct my character well enough myself!!

They say "if life hands you lemons, make lemonade; if it gives you tomatoes, make Bloody Marys" it sounds simple.. make the best of what you get.. but it ain't as simple to do.. buts what would be simpler.. "when life gives you chocolate, make chocolate milkshake" but life doesn't always give you chocolates does it?? I know life is not meant to be all hunky dory but wen life gives you 5 blows in a row.. it is a little difficult to remain optimistic... life seems like a constant battle and nothing seems to be going right..

I wish I can turn the sour lemon into sweet lemonade.