Its all my fault
i love to love..
Its all my fault
i try so hard..
Its all my fault
with ease i trust...
Its all my fault
i sought to be understood...
Its all my fault
i am in disarray,
when good is not enough,
and better is possible..
Its all my fault
for realising late,
the good was the best i could do..
its all my fault
i judge myself
by others expectations..
and worse of all;
its all my fault
I'm last on my own priority list!!
i hate not the way you make feel
but the way i feel..
sometimes like a princess..
like the world is mine
and i loved every grape in the vine..
sometimes i lived without a care
about how in this big bad world I'd fare
sometimes I'd take all the time
just to "stand and stare"
but now that seems just too rare
the strings seem to pull and
i seem to have lost what was
and the world seems far away
the time just as usual doesn't wait
that only compels me to feel
I'm already late
and more than the way you make me feel
that's what i hate..
i hate not that you hurt me..
i hate it that i hurt you
when i love you with all my heart
and i don't want to part..
cos whatever happens ill hold
you next to my heart...
Day3 it is.. and on my menu is Dumb Bhindi and roti.. so lets get started.. actually its not very complicated.. first wash and cut the bhindi.. i did cut it really neat (atleast thats what i thought.. and that was before my grandmother told me that i m chopping too much of the edges)..
Step 2.. i take out my super looking cooking vessel.. ( i love cooking in those cute looking aluminium pots)
then i being.. heat a little oil.. fry the jeera add the masalas (and my trick for most indian dishes.. add a pinch of everything in the box and extra of the ones im sure go into the dish :P)
then put the bhindi in... cover the vessel and let it simmer..
after about ten to twelve minutes i ask my grandma if its done and she says add the masalas now.. (uh uh was my reaction.. you already know what i had done.. but thats what the recipe online told me) anyways i checked it with the spoon and it looked cooked.. so the gas goes off.. a little of it in a bowl to make my guinea pig taste...
and yippii.. my aunt says its super :) and then i tell her what i did.. and there i learn another tip.. fresh bhindi is very tender so its ok if the masala is added first..
Verdict: Bhindi brilliant.. rotis need loads more practise
After the success of the palak paneer, i wanted to get a little adventurous.. and decided to make alu ka parantha. Wow.. I love paranthas, some may say, while a kitchen regular is sure to say that there is nothing adventurous about making alu ka parantha.
The confirmation recipe i read online did make it look easy. but uh right. first boil the potatoes, while thats happening knead dough and leave it aside for sometime, peel the potatoes and mash them, add the spices and make the filling. Till here is the easy part.
And then you have to roll the paranthas. now, not only is that tricky but also requires loads of practise and skill. the parantha keeps tearing and the filling starts popping out.. uh.. really painful experience.. but then i managed to cook the required minimum of four.
Verdict: Looks horrid with all the masala popping out and it being shapeless, but it was edible enough to be eaten without cribbing :(
Mum is not there.. so for a month i'm the queen of the kitchen.. day1 in the kitchen and yippe its a holiday.. and whats cooking as per my menu?? umm Palak Paneer.. cooking really is a stress buster.. anyway to get on with making palak panner.. dad got the palak and 2 bunches of it (previous experience told me one bunch ain't enough for the whole family) so there you go.. onions and tomatoes are on the kitchen table.. but oops first i have to make the paneer.. so there goes one liter milk on the gas and to curdle it i squeeze lime juice.. so as the milk gets curdled.. i get all the other ingredients...
Then for cleaning the palak, graciously i'd admit that i had quite lot passive learning in the science of cooking, so one such tip i learnt was to wash and clean the greens properly and second always boil and then chop them. so tediously i clean the palak and put for a light boil, meanwhile i chop the onion, tomato and garlic and grind them into a paste... the milk and curdled and been strained into a muslin cloth to give the paneer shape. the palak has boiled and cooled a little and that goes into the mixer too.. a smooth Green paste is ready..
so all the basic preps are done.. now is my time to have fun.. The kadai is on the gas.. 2 tablespoon oil.. the onion- tomato paste goes in first.. till it gets a little golden brown.. then the spices.. (whenever i get confused i use all mum keeps in the spice box and whenever is most of the time). then the palak goes in and a sliced chilly.. a little cooking for about five minutes..(you dont cook greens for too long they lose the vitamins).
ok the gas is off.. and so am i.. i have notes to copy till lunchtime..
at lunchtime the gravy is on the flames.. the panner is being cut into cubes.. salt is added to gravy(adding salt at the end lets the palak be green).. the papad is roasted. the maid has already cooked the chapathis...
and lunch is served..
Verdict on the palak paneer.. Good but salt is a little less :(
there was a very interesting article in today's paper titled "Men gossip more than women" disappointingly i was late as usual and dint have time to read the entire article (my priority was the zodiac forecast column). anyways coming back to the topic. "Gossip" is an activity that has been associated with women for time immemorial, the tell-tale habit and the humour of saying that a woman would suffer from indigestion if she dint pass on the news she had. Well yes, women do gossip, they do pass on little tittle-tattle, but all of it is to build a stronger bond or break the ice with friends and colleagues.
Men would never admit that they gossip(i call it the male ego). and not only gossip, they gossip on mostly similar topics as women but i think there is a small difference. For women it is a chatty talk they indulge in, for men it is a sort of morale or confidence boost.
and to top it all they'd call it "Networking"
The little bit that i picked from the article today was that while an average female spends 56 minutes a day on gossip mongering, males indulge in it for 72 minutes but they tend to talk more about themselves.
the most important point of difference between men and women gossiping however boils down to 2 factors for me a highly animated tone with plenty of detail and an even more animated and enthusiastic response :P
Men might gossip more but women are more skilled at it :P
I agree that our constitution provides us with the fundamental rights of expression; but its one thing to use the liberty to say what you want and another to misuse it. I dont know if im being hypocritical but i truly found a shoe being hurled at Bush funny. seeing an Iraqi journalist throwing a couple of shoes at bush may not mean much to me but seeing the same treatment to a union minister is no laughing matter. I know politicians in india are no longer respected, but Mr Chidambaram has atleast a few credentials to his name to be treated respectfully.
Tytler getting a congress ticket after being given a clean chit by the CBI in the 1984 Sikh riots and probably to add insult to injury Mr Chidambaram did dodge the question pretty well. whatever said and done; as a journalist the first thing to learn is to report the news in an objective manner. and how can someone do that when they cant keep their emotions in check and act off handedly.
hypocritical or not it was sadistic pleasure to see Bush being ridiculed, but it is hurtful and angers me to see a man like Chidambaram being treated like this; atleast in the former case he was in alien territory and had done sufficient wrong to deserve that.
the journalist has already apologised and regretted his actions saying he did not intend to hurt anyone. the damage however is done. i dont support politicians but a few them like Mr Chidambaram do deserve to be treated humanly and shown basic courtesy, about the rest i really dont care.
Some people ask do best friends fight? Well may be not all it really depends you know. There are best friends who understand each other totally, know immediately that something is wrong. You’d hardly see them fighting. And there is another set, who can’t seem to finish the day without a fight, it’s just as if it’s a mandatory part of the daily routine. But that doesn’t mean that they understand each other any less.
There are many who say that spending quality time, understanding each other, listening to them are the best ways to strengthen a relationship.
Not many will agree with me, but what I would add to the list is a nice healthy fight. Uh.. I am sure there are raised eyebrows. But with a few people it really does work... and i'm talking about the "violent conflicts" not conflicts in the literal sense, with not much of perceived or actual oppositions of views and needs, but violent yes!! (everyone cant afford a punching bag. can they?)
Each time the silly fight occurs; there is one who attempts the sincere apology and the other who stone heartedly rejects it. Only to say a couple of minutes later, I don’t need an apology from you stupid!! Sometimes it may take a little longer than a couple of minutes, but that does not mean there is a hard bricked wall, there is only a little veil that does not take more than a moment to throw off.
Each time the fight is over the smile seems to get brighter and the bond seems to grow deeper.
A perfect cup of coffee is a quest that has captivated men and women all around the world. my life is a cup filled with hot freshly brewn aromatic coffee... and for me it was perfect.. i felt i had conquered..
when you blend the 4 different ingredients of coffee; milk, water, sugar, coffee. and to spice it up a little the 5th cinnamon you get the perfect coffee..
each ingredient different and totally unique, and the coffee cant do without any of them.. you have to mix them at the right time in the right mix..
you dont need the understanding of physics or the laws of mixtures of chemistry for that :)
i thought i had got it right.. fixed up where i had gone wrong..with no shortcuts i gave it my best.. but i guess i was wrong again.. my coffee is beginning to go wrong? what do i do to set it right?? can an expert help me out???
