Omg... What-a-match!!!!

Its not very often that my little bro says he has only 10 finger nails to bite off!!! if federer vs tipsarevic last year was a highlight at the Australian Open last year and the Wimbledon final between nadal and federer breathtaking.. the all Spanish semi today was heartstopingly fantabulous.

Rafael Nadal vs Fernando Verdasco at the Australian Open Semi Final 2009 created history. the longest ever in Australian Open History.

God i think dint want me miss the second half of the action and sent a blessing cancelling my evening class.

i may not be a pro at tennis, nor is it my area of expertise.. but the match i saw today was by far one of the best i've ever seen.

Five hours and 14 minutes of intensely fierce is no mean joke. 95 winners from Verdasco (totally disappointing many about not making it a three digit figure) dint wilt away Nadal. The point Nadal won in the fourth set to win his fourth game made the entire arena stand up and applaud. Nadal tired Verdasco making him run around the court and the effort was taking its toll on the 25 yr old Spaniard. But all those signs vanished in the tie break; taking it 7-1 he leveled the match to 2 sets a piece.

And in the fifth set altleast i din't want to place my money on whose serve would be broken first. but Nadal definitely had the added advantage of serving first in the decider. verdasco saw off two match points courageously, but to Nadal's relief instead of the timely ace (like many other occasions during the match) came a double fault.

Quite an anti climax ending to what had been one of the most dramatic matches of the era. A true epic.

Unfortunately there had to be a loser. Fortunately for me it was Verdasco

I do hope the final is not a dampener. With a fresh Federer crushing a tired Nadal (i'm saying that inspite of Nadal having a better head to head record in Grand Slam Finals)

So Nadal go for it.. Don't give up easily. Your trademark persistence will pay-off (like he is gonna read this)!!!

Rafa The Writer???

With a golden mane, a long face structure and at six feet one inch, the Tarzan look alike i'm talking about is Rafael Nadal. The world No 1. He has set up an all Spanish Semi at the Australian Open. Am not amazed at him being there. His sporting skills i have never questioned. His rivalry with Federer has been more than thrilling.

Right now he is doing everything right on the court(touch wood). what i'm surprised at are his literary skills. i had been ignorant about his blogging till it came in one of the newspapers highlighting that he will be writing his "digital diary" everyday during the Australian Open.

There was a very sweet bit on one of the blogs where he says he is getting better at English, then goes on to apologise because he made a mistake with "his English" and then says it was his translator..

Dry and boring for most people. But for ardent Rafa fans its a nice sneak peek into what he does and how he does.

umm obviously I'm gonna be following (when i get time)..

Mixed Emotions...

A study in Washington suggests people who experience mixed emotions (the feeling of positive and negative emotions) are more creative people.. and the psychologists go on to explain that such people interpret the experience as a signal that they are in an unusual environment and respond to it by creative thinking.

Another study says that people remember occasions with mixed emotions are not remembered as well as those where the felt singally happy or sad.. obvious isn't it.. because we tend to rely less on the episodic memory of emotional experience. We are uncomfortable with mixed emotions. We want to resolve the conflicts. Thereby we fade the emotional intensity.

and there is my theory.. that mixed emotions are a result of "lack of emotional persistence". We react differently to the same situation at different times. We react differently to different situations at the same time..

there is really nothing deep to be lost in thought. there is no strange philosophy. the nuance of emotion is that "you can like and hate a person at the same time"

just be sure of how you handle your mixed emotions.. let it not make a mix of anything else..

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what is the cognitive state of mind when u feel you've done something you shouldn't have.. the feeling that wouldn't go away.. the feeling of having hurt someone very dear(or getting them angry)... the feeling of remorse... the "brick on the conscious".. the perception of being wrong in the conscious an sub conscious state of mind..

uummm.. i guess that pang of emotion is called guilt.. something i'm currently experiencing..

once i told my friend "dash the guilt and throw it out of the window" and she said it ain't that easy.. well however trivial that matter is.. probably highly insignificant and easily forgettable.. today i agree that it ain't that easy to dash the guilt and throw it out of the window..

the least i could do to sooth my conscious was to apologize to that dear one i hurt.. i did.. profusely and genuinely but the guilt doesn't seem to go away...

Possessiveness..

i got a text which said that "possessiveness does not arise because we do not trust someone but because we cannot imagine our life without them.." and i just starting thinking about it..


and as usual i checked the dictionary.. the dictionary defines possessiveness as "Having or manifesting a desire to control or dominate another, especially in order to limit that person's relationships with others." Um.. does that sound good??? the tendency to feel possessive is totally natural but there is a huge difference between being and acting possessive.. most have the opinion that personal freedom and choice are of utmost importance.. but for all though..


Possessiveness is the underlying reason that otherwise sane person totally insane... and possessiveness is not found only in a romantic relationship where there might be a degree of insecurity forming the base of this emotion...

but look a toddler... try taking his mum away from him and you'll hear him wailing, screaming and probably he'd attempt to beat you up.. and toddlers are possessive not only about their mums but also about their toys...

but the toddler is just learning isnt he???

relationships collapse because of possessiveness overdrive and power struggle.. actions in a relationship can never be reasoned out.. the joys and happiness are meant to be shared and not limited like a piece of cake or cookie.. not being over-possessive is a lesson and learning in life that requires conscious effort from our part to put in practise..

in any relationship it should not be sought to take over the other person's life.. rather enhance it..

My cute adorable little baby brother..:)

i dint stare at him sleeping in his crib.. i dint feed him baby food... i dint hide away his G I Joes (if he ever played with them) i never tried to break his gun into two... there are no nostalgic thoughts about his childhood.. but truly there is a highly creative image..

what i always wanted was a younger sister and younger brother.. and God has been really kind to give me a likeness of both.. anyways today i'm all pepped up to write about my adorable little baby brother..

ok for firsts i got a fully grown baby brother.. thats exactly the reason i dint get to hide his toys.. or better still break them.. nor did i get to feed him baby food.. well i'm definitely going to attempt make him taste my cooking.. (he calls me the worlds best cook even without tasting my cooking.. think thats the only reason he has the guts to do so.. he wouldn't have the audacity to that after experiencing my culinary skills).. :P

Secondly.. my little baby brother aint really little.. he is a good six inches taller than me..

and the best way to describe him is to compare him to a coconut (he'll kill me if he reads this) but he truly is like that.. with a rugged exterior.. someone you wouldnt really expect to have a lot of emotion and sensitivity.. but like soft whiteness of the coconut he is a true delight to know.. he listens to you like he doesnt know to talk.. he'd let you pour out all you want.. and then give you the most sensible and practical solution..and really him owe him loads for the innumerable times he has heard me crib and blabber on and then drive sense into my head..:)

and you know what is better.. he listens and doesnt forget.. he remembers exactly what you tell him.. no matter how irrelevant that is to him..

he hates the kind of movies i watch.. but never misses out to tell me when one of my kind is on air.. uh.. its a different story that he cannot imagine life without television.. (not many can imagine life without their first love.. can they??)

he cant take non-sense but bears my senseless company with no utterance of irritation...

and if Pablo Picasso and Leonardo da vinci were put together also i dont think they could paint as beautifully as he does.. and trust me i cannot over exaggerate his artistic skills.. he is the best.. and i have proof of that right in my bed room..

thats my little adorable baby brother.. truly cute.. and irresistibly sweet..

we are polar opposites at many things (actually most) but there are many beliefs and values that we have in common..

Thanks lil bro.. :)

Pink carnations....

Dear, Delicate, Durable.. there is only one thing that comes to mind.. the most anciently cultivated beautiful carnations... and not just any carnations but the pretty pink ones.. the scientific name of the flower literally translates into "flower of love" or "flower of the Gods" may be thats why it has been revered for so long..



Legend has it that when Jesus carried the cross, the Virgin Mother Mary wept, and where her tears fell on the ground, the first carnations sprang up!! thus making the carnations a symbol of mother's undying love.. though i'm not too sure about the basis of this legend in Christian mythology..




i saw the most beautiful bunch of pink carnations ever about a week ago... and to describe them in words is highly improbable.. but it spread a smile across my face and i wish i had stopped to buy them.. well its all together a different story that i dint have cash on me to buy them nor did i have anyone to them for me..

Fragrant and fabulous, they are enough to lift up my spirits when i'm low and the colour pink echos perfect happiness and thankfulness... the strong sentiments that the pink flower expresses is a perfect compliment to its long lasting beauty...

an i'm still waiting for my bunch.. :P